Dilemma.

Here I am, my kids are all in school, something I've dreaded and dreamed of for so long. Now I'm really seeing how unorganized I am. Even with my days free, I can't seem to get anything done. Is this how all artists are? I seem to be more behind than ever! I've made a list but it doesn't really help me. Oh, I guess it helps a little bit. I seem to be torn between what I want to do (paint) and what I need to do (the list). It's causing a lot of anxiety. Maybe I will get to paint this afternoon and tonight.